Morgan Hill “Sprint” Triathlon

Yes, I’m still alive and well. Actually I’m doing really well. However, my blogging hasn’t been doing so well. I’ll fill you all in soon on my training, big plans, and changes but let’s just get this race report up and go from there.

Heading into this race, all I wanted to do was best last years time. I remembered I didn’t have the best swim, couldn’t remember much about the bike, and my foot/leg fell completely asleep on the run and I was forced to walk the last mile. Sadly, I messed up my garmin during this race last year so I only had the run data stored. But whatever, I knew my finishing time and knew my goal was to beat it.

Training has been going well (more about that later) and I was feeling pretty strong headed into this race. Then…I got food poisoning the Monday before Race weekend. That put me down, in bed, zero strength for 2 days. I spent the rest of the week trying to rehydrate and fuel my body back to healthy. I wasn’t going to let that alter my goals for this race. I trusted my training and my body.

Race morning, I was calm and ready. I set up my transition in the middle of a long rack without any stress of not being near the end. I wasn’t there to break any records or kill myself trying. I chatted amongst friends and teammates as the start of the race crept near. With about 10 minutes until the first swim wave was set to take off, I made my way down to the water.

I was in the second swim wave and we were set up to start 6 minutes apart. As the first wave took off, I got in the water and swam the 50 or so yards to the start buoys. The water wasn’t cold and I felt confident in my sleeveless wetsuit. I placed myself in the middle of the pack and to the left side. Men and women 30-39 were all in the same wave, so there was no way I was starting near the front and risking getting kicked or pulled or swam over.

As the start horn sounded, I paused to let the swimmers in front of me take off. It took a few seconds for the mass to settle in and actually start swimming. I didn’t panic and just let it be. Once it was clear, I settled into my stroke and focused on calm breathing. I didn’t feel the usual panic or anxiety that I was so use to with racing. Around the first buoy and I was still passing swimmers with ease. My breathing remained calm and my stroke felt strong. This continued throughout the entire swim. By the tone I reached the last swim turn, I remember thinking, I could swim forever. I was that relaxed and confident. However, it was time to start firing up the legs and mentally preparing for the bike portion. I made the last turn and picked up the pace as I headed towards shore, touched the bottom with my finger tips, planted my feet on the ground and made my way up towards transition. I glanced at my watch and thought it looked like a pretty good swim split. Goggles off. Cap off. Wetsuit pulled down to my waist and up the boat ramp I went.

I remembered the bike course had some hills and sharp turns. I hadn’t ridden outside at all since my last race in March (more on that another time) but I wasn’t too worried about that. I have put in the time in the saddle and that is what mattered to me in that moment. The first few miles, my legs felt tight and my cadence was slower than I wanted. Sadly, I lost my hydration around mile 3 when I hit a dip in the road at an accelerated speed and it went flying. This sent me into a small panic. The bike course was only 17 miles, but I knew I would need water. By mile 5, my legs had loosened and I found my rhythm. Knowing that I had a 5 mile run to tackle afterwards, I didn’t push on the bike. I rode strong, but I was definitely in my “comfortable” zone. I hit the steepest hill on the course at mile 11ish and felt like my legs were going to fall off. Maybe I did need to ride outside some before races. Too late now. I struggled up the hill and then made the final push towards transition. At this point, I had no idea where I was in the pack of my age group, but knew I had passed one lady and had gotten swarmed by plenty of men in all age groups.

Bike gear off and run gear on. Now time for my most dreaded part of the race…running. I knew the run wasn’t going to be flat or easy. I drank some water in transition (since I lost mine on the bike) and headed out with a gel in hand. The first mile, I settled into my 9:30ish mile pace. Because of my training, I knew this was a pace that I could hold that would challenge me, but not kill me. Around mile 2, I was passed by the first girl in my age group. I still had no clue how many were in front of me, but the run is generally where they catch me. I didn’t let this frustrate me. I remained in my own zone and kept my pace. I stopped at the aid station at mile 2, took my gel and got some water. Again, worried that I would start cramping since I didn’t have water during the ride. I took off again, looking forward to the turn around. This is when I started seeing women in my age group that were ahead of me. One. Two. Three. Four. I was currently sitting 5th in my age group at the turnaround. No podium for me, but again, that wasn’t my plan. I knew that the 9:30 pace was working. But my left foot was becoming more and more numb. Just as it had the year before. I decided to turn it up a bit and push myself a little harder. I grabbed water at the mile 2/4 aid station and made my way to the finish line.

All in all, it was a good race for me. I didn’t push the red line (which I really miss) and ran a safe race. I reached my goal and beat my previous years time by 3 minutes. My swim was one of the best swim paces I’ve ever had. My bike split was almost exactly the same as the previous year and my run was a bit faster. Definitely not as fast overall as I wanted, but improvement is improvement.

Oh and come to find out…I was 3rd in my AG out of the water, moved to 2nd off the bike and ended up 5th at the finish. Someday I won’t get beat on the run.

Having friends and family there to cheer me along is always my favorite part. Sadly I also had a close friend and teammate crash during this race so the post race celebration will have to wait until she is healthy and healed.

Second race of the season done…up next….Bass Lake as a relay June 2nd. It’s always a party!!!

Thanks for reading!


Oh my gosh Becky…where has she been?


Soooooo…it’s been awhile. I understand and I apologize. 2017 was a rough year. Yeah, I know…I said 2016 was rough. Well, 2017 was rough in other ways. I’ll cut it short so we can move on to the more important topics and happier news.

2017 proved to be the year of challenges and growth. 2016 may have broke me physically, but 2017 broke me mentally. I went through so pretty rough personal matters, family members and loved ones had some pretty major and unexpected surgeries, dealt with anxiety and depression (not new but newly discovered), and still tried to train and race. I told you….it was a rough year.

The race season of 2017 wasn’t great. I started off strong at USAP events Duathlon in March. I landed on the podium and thought I was off to a great year of racing. Then came Half Moon Bay, where I almost didn’t start the race and ended up giving up on the run and walking it in. Next up was Santa Cruz half marathon and there I started dealing with my left foot falling asleep when I ran anything over 5-6 miles. Onto Morgan Hill triathlon where my foot fell completely asleep and scared the crap out of me on the run and again ended up walking in the run. Pleasanton tri came and since I was still dealing with my foot falling asleep, I knew I would be walking most of the run and was okay with that. Last race of the year was Folsom and I got smart and signed up for the Aqua bike and took the run out of the equation all together. I did really well and ended the season on a high note. Through several doctor appointments, with several different types of doctors, it was determined that a nerve was pinched and causing the numbness in my foot. Thank goodness because I was NOT going through another surgery.

So, as 2017 wrapped up, I was able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Personal matters some what sorted themselves out. Family and loved ones were healthy once again. Job was solid. And kids were…..well, kids! I was thankful the year was coming to an end and looking forward for a fresh set of 365 days.


Here comes the good news….I am back!! I am back to training. I am back to racing. For real this time. Not like last year where my mind and energy was elsewhere and I showed up to races hoping for the best. Nope. Not gonna happen in 2018. How do I know this isn’t going to happen??? Well, for starters, I’ve hired a coach. Yep…I told you it was getting serious. I obviously wasn’t going to do the work without the accountability of a coach. So, I signed up for 2 months with Tri Dot Systems and quickly (very quickly) upgraded to a minimum of 6 months. I am very excited about this (my bank account may not be) because I am ready to work hard again and tackle races knowing that I’m prepared and trained.

What is my 2018 race season going to look like?? Well, not much different from the past years. I will race in Exeter, Ca to start the season in March. From there, it will be all USAP event races and quiet possibly a 70.3 to end the year. Yep, you read that correctly. Maybe. It is not officially official until I pay for it so stay tuned. I am beyond excited to see where this year takes me. I am no longer physically broken. I am no longer mentally broken. I am in a good place at home, work, and in training. Now all I have to do is stay balanced and as we all know, that is the true test.

Stay tuned for updates, as I should have some VERY soon.

They can’t all be pretty

March 23rd…first triathlon of the season….USAP Event’s Half Moon Bay Triathlon. About and month prior, I decided that I would race the International distace (.9 mile swim, 27 mile ride, and 6.2 mile run) since I would have completed a half marathon just two weeks before ( I didn’t write a blog about that race because I am lame and forgot). I had great intentions of getting out there and racing the longer distance. I had great intentions to actually train. I had great intentions. I had…..well…..yeah….life happened.


The week leading up to the triathlon, I struggled with life mentally. Stress was high. Emotions were high. Energy was low. I had not trained. Other than running (preparing for the half marathon) I hadn’t trained at all. So the Wednesday before race day, I made the call and dropped to the sprint distance (500yard swim, 11 mile ride, and 3 mile run) I dropped the distance for fear of injury and to save myself more stress. Although I wasn’t real happy about making the decision and feeling like a slacker, I knew it was the right thing to do.

Race weekend was here….headed to the beach…wooooo hooo! I SHOULD have been excited. I SHOULD have been excited to race. I SHOULD have been excited to get out of town. I SHOULD have been excited for girls weekend. But…I wasn’t. Not even close. My head was clouded with negative thoughts. I couldn’t shake it. I tried faking it but didn’t make it. I tried looking for the positives that were swarming around me, but fumbled to find them. I tried breathing exercises to calm my mind. Sadly, nothing helped. I was in a funk.

Race morning quickly approached and I woke up feeling a bit better. Still very unsure about racing and lacking confidence. I don’t think I have EVER headed into a race feeling this way. I got to transition early, set up my things, checked in with friends, and wandered around. I saw the excitement and anticipation on all the athlete’s face. It was a look I knew well, but a look I wasn’t wearing. Focus! Focus! Focus! On repeat in my head. I jumped into my wet suit, grabbed my cap and goggles and headed down to the water.


As the International distance racers took off, I knew it was time to get in the water and start acclimating to the cold Pacific waters. I was paralyzed on the beach. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t get myself into the water. I stared off into the distance and thought to myself ” I could just not start and cheer my friends on instead.” I honestly gave this more thought than I should have. I was so very close to turning around and walking back to transition and calling it quits. BUT…..out of all things, I am NOT a quitter. I packed up my pitty party and got into the water. Luckily it wasn’t as cold as I was anticipating and began to get excited to swim. I found my place among the other green caps and waited for the gun to signal our start. The first triathlon of the season had begun….

The swim went fairly well. I got kicked, brushed shoulders, hit hands, as I made my way around the buoys. I exited the swim feeling good and headed to transition. It was a long way on a paved road and I didn’t bring any shoes for the trek. My feet were ice cold and I ran over more rocks than I ever thought possible. Ahhhhh…transition….crawl out of the wet suit, dirty feet into my cycling shoes, helmet on head, glasses on face. I was off…

The ride took us along highway 1. The wind was present but I didn’t feel it on my face on the way out. That only meant one thing….head wind at the turn around. Recognizing this, I worked hard to keep a strong pace, using the wind at my back to my advantage. My heart rate stayed pretty steady and I managed to stay focused through the first 3 miles. As we hit the turn around, we were slapped in the face with a strong head wind and strong cross winds. I tucked my head and fought to keep a strong pace, but couldn’t keep my head down for long as the cross winds would catch my wheel set and push me farther into the shoulder. Mile after mile, pedal stroke after pedal stroke. As I began to lose focus, I began to lose motivation to work hard. I didn’t want to ride in the winds anymore. I wanted to be DONE. Not just with the bike portion, but in general. Then we made a left hand turn and my wishes were answered….I have never been so happy to feel a tail wind. The roads were smooth and the cross winds were gone. I tucked my head and dropped my shoulders. I felt like I was flying but didn’t feel like was I working all that hard. I managed to look down at my watch and see that I was holding a steady 27mph. Ah yeah!! These are the moments I live for on the bike. I took advantage of every second and rode into transition with a smile on my face.

Helmet off. Glasses off. Cycling shoes off. Running shoes on. Race belt on. Visor on and I was off. Or was I?? I ran out of transition and the smile that was just smeared across my face moments ago, silently disappeared. I ran down to the path along the ocean, but I didn’t even notice how beautiful the run was. I DIDN’T WANT TO RUN. I didn’t want to be out there anymore. The lack of confidence returned along with the lack of motivation. I made the mistake of looking down at my watch and seeing that I was only a half mile into the run and my pace was not impressive. I felt like I was working a million times harder than I had just two weeks prior at the half marathon. It was then that I thought about quitting yet again. I wasn’t going to podium. I wasn’t going to be happy with my performance. What was the point in even finishing? Sad, but true, this is where my thoughts gathered. Ugh….


Somehow, some way, I crossed the finish line. I was not happy. I was not impressed. I grabbed some water and headed back out on the run course. This time walking towards the rocks that lined the waters edge. I sat on those rocks for over an hour.


What if I am not meant to race in triathlons anymore? It was who I was, but maybe I am meant to do something different. I could not find the motivation to train leading up to the race. I did not have fun on the course. I had NEVER felt like this during or after a race before. I use to love doing this. I use to train for hours a day. I just don’t know.

Not all races are going to be pretty. Not all races are going to hold up to my high expectations. Not all races are going to be all rainbows and butterflies. I needed this race. I needed to struggle. I needed to learn that if I was the results, I have to put in the work. I learned that this sport definitely takes a lot of physical effort, but it takes just as much (if not more) mental focus. I learn things the hard way. Always have, probably always will. It is who I am. But one thing remains….I WILL NOT QUIT. I didn’t at this race, when life was stacked up against me. I managed to push through. I crossed the finish line. And for that day, that was all I could I do.

As for what’s next….Morgan Hill triathlon. That’s what is on the schedule. Life is still kicking my arse. I have trained twice since the race. I have great intentions of training more and putting in a better effort in Morgan Hill.

Stay tuned my friends……

I’m baaaack!

Oh my goodness…it’s been a long time since I posted on here. In the past 6 months, my life has been flipped upside down and A LOT has changed. That is another post for another time. This post is about tackling my comeback into the triathlon world. I am 3 days shy of the 1 year anniversary of the ankle break. We will not be celebrating that day. However, we are celebrating that the ankle is feeling pretty darn good.

I am fortunate enough to be named an ambassador for USA Productions again this year. I plan on participating in almost all of their events this year. First up was the South Bay Duathlon this past weekend. Running has obviously been the hardest for me to regain, but I have been working on it. In a duathlon, you run and then bike and then run again. Ugh….running. No swimming. WHY??? I agreed to race it and so I did.


I signed up for the sprint distance so I could push the ankle in a race setting but not kill myself. This particular race called for a 2 mile run, 10 mile bike, and another 2 mile run. Because I am who I am, I looked up the times from last year and got an idea where I wanted to set my goal time. According to last year’s times and my training times, I could possibly land on the podium. This is always a goal for me, but coming off a year off and not really pushing myself during training, I wasn’t holding any real expectations. And besides, it all depends who shows up on race day.

Off to Morgan Hill we went. The sprint distance had a late start time, 9:34am. It was foggy and cold race morning, but the forecast called for temps in the upper 70’s, low 80’s. I watched as the longer distance race took off at 7 am and headed back to the car to stay warm. There I looked up how many ladies were racing in my age group. There were 8 of us. The thought of a podium finish crossed my mind again, but I didn’t want to put too much pressure on myself. This would be a new approach for me. Breathe…breathe….breathe.


Finally the clock approached 9:30am. I took a short run to warm up the legs and then headed to the start line. As the gun fired, we all took off for our 2 mile run. The lead pack of ladies took off VERY fast. I stayed in the middle of the pack, but when I looked down at my watch and saw a 8:05 min/mile pace, I KNEW I had to slow way down. I let the lead pack take off and knew then and there that I needed to race MY race and let the idea of a podium finish go. I knew at least 3-4 ladies in my age group were in that lead pack. I settled into my run rhythm and pushed a pace I knew I could handle. I finished the 2 mile run in a 8:50 min/mile pace. I was satisfied with that, but according to my training runs, I knew I could run faster. The legs were heavy, but I accepted it and switched into riding mode.


I hopped onto my trusty pink machine and took off.


I kept my cadence at a good pace and passed several people on the first few miles. I even caught up to one of the ladies in my age group. As I passed her, I called out ” Catch me on the run”. I knew I would have to create a good sized gap to hold her off on the run. My ride continued strong. I pushed on the flats and kept a high cadence up the single hill on the course. The 10 miles were broken into 2 five mile loops. The second go around, I was able to push more since I knew what to expect.


As I came into transition, I was feeling hungry and didn’t have any nutrition on me or waiting for me in transition. Bad move.



I hopped off the bike, grabbed my running gear and heading back out for 2 miles. The legs still felt heavy, but I had a goal and I wouldn’t let it slip away. At this point, I knew I hadn’t caught enough ladies on the bike portion to think about a podium finish. It was now about racing MY race and push my body to perform. I ran and attempted to hold a 9:00 min/mile pace. That pace slowly slipped away as the legs got heavier and heavier. I shortened my stride and dug deep. As I made the last turn, with .2 miles to go, I knew I had to turn it up and finish strong. I dropped into a sub 9 min/mile pace and crossed the finish line.


I wasn’t super happy about my performance since my legs felt heavy and weak. I was disappointed because my training runs had been strong. Regardless of my time, I was happy that the ankle didn’t bother me hardly at all during the race. I had set a time goal for myself and I ended up crushing that. I raced my race, and beat my goals. That is what success is all about.

I hung out with my mom and daughters and waited for my friend to cross the finish line. After she crossed, I noticed that they had posted the finishing times. I headed over to check out how I did against the other ladies in my age group. I was SHOCKED to see that I had finished 3rd in my age group. Oh. My. Goodness. I had given up on the goal of standing on the podium and I was okay with that. I would have been happy finishing anywhere in my age group because I beat the goal I set out for myself. That is really what the day was about. Finishing on the podium just happened to be an added bonus.

I collected my award and congratulated the other two ladies that finished before me. I thanked the girl I passed on the bike for pushing me to run hard to the finish line. (She finished only a minute or 2 behind me.)  I love the triathlon community for this reason. Everyone is so supportive and friendly. Yes, it is a competition, but we are all there to push and challenge each other, as we push ourselves. I was proud to race among that group of ladies.


So, what is in store for racing this year? Well, like I said, I will be participating in as many USAP events as I possibly can. I will likely bump up to the longer distance as my running miles increase. Hopefully as the race season continues, my training will become more consistent.  With all my life changes, training has really suffered. With that being said, I bit the bullet and signed up for a 1/2 marathon in Santa Cruz on April 9th. Again,  I will be going into this race with zero expectations. I really just want to see if the ankle will hold up.

Now to get back to actual training……

photos courtesy of USAP, Gary Brooks, and Roy Kikunaga



When I broke my ankle on March 17th, I asked the orthopedic surgeon to be honest with me. I asked him when I would be able to race again. I didn’t want the sugar coated version. I didn’t want to hear anything but reality, even though I wasn’t prepared to hear the words. After getting over the heartbreak of hearing my dream of racing Vineman in July was NOT going to happen, he continued to tell me that it would take 6-9 months post surgery to be able to start running and a good year to feel “normal” again.  You have heard my story. You all know what emotions ran through me. It was like a hurricane, tornado, and earthquake all wrapped into one. Emotional roller coaster doesn’t begin to describe it. 
You read all the time of stories where people beat the odds.

5 and a half months. I am running short distances, biking on mainly flat roads, and swimming. But, knowing exactly where you are in recovery is sometimes hard to determine. What better way than to sign up for a super sprint triathlon and put the ankle to the test? Brilliant idea, right?!? I thought so too.

 So, on August 28th, I re entered the triathlon scene. Santa Barbara Sprint Triathlon. I didn’t tell many people I was signing up. I didn’t want the pressure of “racing”. I wanted to go out in a race atmosphere, and test the ankle, see where it felt okay, and where I needed to focus my time and energy to improve. I am a VERY competitive person, so going out on the course and not worrying about placement or time would prove to be very difficult. I was so grateful to have a very good friend there with me. Thankfully, in the same age group so I would have her support throughout the course, not to mention, before and after the race as well. 

The swim was 500yards in chilly ocean waters. I got kicked, pulled, pushed, and bumped the entire way. I couldn’t find a way to break free or drop back. I was so relieved when my fingertips hit the sandy ocean floor and it was time to stand up and exit the swim. It was the first time, in a race, that I exited the swim feeling tired. I took my time jogging up the sandy shore, making sure the uneven surface didn’t cause the ankle to roll or fold. Ran through transition, managed to get out of my wetsuit, threw on my bike gear and headed out to the street. 

The bike course was 6 short miles. Fairly flat, through neighborhood streets, with one slight incline. On the course, I would see my good friend many times. We played cat and mouse, joking each time we passed each other. The slight incline came towards the end of the bike course. I knew I would have to make the choice to stand and power up or remain in the saddle and climb steadily. Since I hadn’t practiced running off the bike AT ALL, this choice made me nervous. As I hit the incline, I stayed in my gear, got out of the saddle and powered up. As I hit the crest, my heart rate was high and my legs were letting me know that it was time to “spin out”. I cruised through the rest of the bike and prepared myself mentally for the run. Hit transition fairly cautiously, threw on my running shoes and visor and headed out for my 2 miles. 

2 miles. 2 short, flat, paved miles. I just needed the ankle to hang on. For the first 1/2 mile, I felt good. I watched my pace and made sure I stayed around a 9:30 per mile pace. This is where I had been training and knew the ankle could handle 2 miles at this pace. But, I hadn’t ran 2 miles after biking and swimming and the ankle reminded me of that. I started feeling the ankle lose stability. I had to focus more on each step to ensure it was landing smoothly. I slowed my pace and swallowed my pride as older male competitors started to pass me. “This isn’t about time or placement. This is just a test”. I had to remind myself over and over. I started contemplating switching to a run walk to see if the ankle responded better. But, I kept running. As I hit the turn around, the ankle was no better or worse and I decided to just go for it. I wasn’t experiencing any pain and stayed aware to prevent any rolling or folding.

 I managed to hold a 9:30 pace again and ran all the way back to the finish line. 

I had done it. I completed the entire race and had done better than expected. After crossing the finish line, I reunited with my good friend, congratulated her on an amazing race and headed straight to the medic tent for ice. 

5 1/2 post surgery. I am not only running, I am making my way back to successfully racing again. I have so many people to thank. I couldn’t have gone through recovery, or made my way back to racing so quickly without the love and support from my family and friends. My physical therapist and his staff were beyond amazing. They taught me how to rebuild my strength and flexibility. My entire recovery is ahead of schedule because of their guidance. 

This is just the beginning. I still have work to do. My recovery continues. My goal to finish a Half Ironman is still alive. Stay tuned…

Post Vineman feels and what the heck am I doing?

I am a little late writing about my experience at Vineman 70.3, so let me start there. We headed up to Windsor on the Friday before the race.I was feeling a bit anxious but as soon as I was in the car with Gabe and two of my teammates, my attitude quickly changed. That evening, our house (myself, Gabe, and 4 of my teammates and spouses) hosted a team dinner. This was so much fun and a great reminder of why I joined the team 3 years ago. We talked, we ate, we had fun.

Saturday, however, was much harder. That morning we headed to the Ironman Village to check-in, shop, and those that were racing, dropped off their T2 gear. I checked in just as if I were racing, not only because I wasn’t able to get my registration money refunded, but also to get the magic green athlete bracelet that would allow me to enter athlete only areas.


After checking in and leaving the area with tears in my eyes, we headed to the athlete briefing.  I sat through this meeting, mainly because we had driven the housemates there so we had to wait for them to finish. This was a BAD idea. While sitting in the bleachers, listening to all the details of the race, it really hit me how badly I wanted to race. I held back the tears and put on a happy face for my teammates. I didn’t want to be a downer while they were preparing to race the next day. From there we drove over to Johnson’s beach and met a few teammates that rode there and checked in their bikes. I put my feet in the river and envisioned the race. Shallow, warm waters would have made for a fast swim. Man oh man, the thoughts that swirled around in my head. Again, the tears swelled but I managed to hold them back. It wasn’t until later that evening, when I was able to break away from everyone, that I let the tears fall. I was suppose to be excited and nervous. I was suppose to be organizing and preparing. I was suppose to be chatting about the course and my goals. Instead, I was in tears and heart broken. I can’t remember another time in my life when I was absolutely unable to reach a goal, no matter how hard I tried or worked. This was out of my control and I didn’t know how to deal with that. I let the tears fall. I needed to process the feelings so I could move on and support my teammates the following day.

With a very early wake up call Sunday morning, Gabe and I headed down to Johnson’s beach. Here, we would write race numbers on athlete after athlete as they entered T1. Being as this was my first Ironman event that I have ever been a part of, I wasn’t quite sure what to expect.vineman1

I can honestly say, I had a great time. I was able to see my teammates as they prepared to hit the water, as well as help others athletes in the process. I was thankful I was able to be so close and involved in the race. It was also here that I dropped my timing chip and OFFICIALLY was a DNF. Thankfully, I had had a good cry the night before and made this a  easier on the heart strings.


After the last swim wave took off, we headed back to Windsor and watched teammate after teammate come off the bike and head out on their run. It was nice to be there and cheer them on as they headed out for the last 13.1 miles of their race. The finish line was just on the other side of the school, so eventually we headed that direction. As I stood there, for hours, I watched athlete after athlete cross the finish line. I was no longer sad. I was honored to be there to support my teammates and best friends. It wasn’t my time and I had accepted that once and for all.

The days following were still hard, but I pushed through them. I may not have been able to race a 70.3 in 2016, but that goal is still there. I will reach it. I just have to put in more time and more work. There is a lesson to be learned in there somewhere!

So, here we are. I am officially 5 months post break/surgery.5 months

I am done with physical therapy and out on my own. The scars are fading and the muscles are getting stronger.  I have started the couch to 5k program to help ease myself back into running. I won’t lie or sugar coat it…running hurts. The ankle isn’t a big fan, but I am committed to taking it slow and easy. Some days are better than others and I have learned that I have to take a day or 2 in between to let it recover. Again, a lesson in patience. Some days I am motivated and feel great about my progress. Others I am frustrated and find myself doubting my recovery. Every day I remind myself that the doctors told me I wouldn’t be running again until 6-9 months post surgery. I am ahead of the game.

As far as racing goes…..I am still unsure. I don’t want to race again until I am able to run 100%. If you know me, you understand why. I am competitive. It runs through my blood. When I race, I give it all I’ve got. I do not want to go out and race if I am not able to do that. I have my eyes set on Morro Bay Triathlon in November. I feel like that will give me enough time to work on my run and get it together. I also want to race one more time this year. I have only raced once and the itch is getting stronger and stronger. As far as 70.3 races are concerned….I’m holding onto hope that 2017 is the year. If I build slowly and take care of my body, I should be able to reach it. I thought about Oceanside in March, but that is still too early. I tried to get priority registration for Vineman 2017, but it didn’t happen. I will try one more time when general registration opens and if it doesn’t happen then, I will have to believe that it isn’t the race for me. My last and final choice is Santa Cruz in September. My only concern about this race is that it finishes on soft sand. With my ankle and the level of fatigue, this scares me a bit. But, I have a lot of time between now and then to figure it out.

So, there you have it. The past, the present and the unknown future. School starts for my 3 littles on Monday and hopefully I will be back in the routine of all 3 disciplines. I am ready. Speed bump after speed bump may slow me down, but it will not completely stop me. 2017 will be different, maybe even great.



Vineman 70.3 is here…

I have tried to get myself to write this post several times, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. As I sit here, getting ready to load up the car, and head to Windsor, Ca…I am forcing myself to write this blog. For me. For you. For anyone that cares to listen. 

About a year ago, I committed to racing this race. My best friend and I would do it together for her 40th birthday. Then, our triathlon club got priority registration so about 20 of our teammates also committed to racing as well. To be able to race my first 70.3 distance race with so many of my friends and teammates was the ultimate situation. Excited doesn’t begin to explain the feelings running through my body. I spent the winter months building my endurance. I sludged through slow, tedious workouts knowing that come springtime, I would be able to start speed work and reap the rewards. I then powered through speedwork, tempo, hard sets in the spring. My times were dropping and the power was increasing. 

You all know what happened next. 

I will still be with my best friend and my 20 or so teammates this weekend. I wouldn’t miss it for the world. I would be lying if I said it is going to be easy. It’s not. I don’t know how I will feel being on the sidelines. I don’t know how to make it easier on myself. Maybe I will be fine. Maybe I will be an emotional mess. I just don’t know.  But I would hate myself if I stayed at home and pouted.

 Instead, I will go out there on Sunday and make the most of it. I will be in T1 body marking athletes before the race begins. I will stay on Johnson’s Beach until the last wave sets off and then I will travel to Windsor High and watch the athletes as they tradition from bike to run and eventually cross the finish line. It will be a great day, full of great racing. And I will be there to cheer, support, and congratulate.

I can’t stop myself from thinking “what if”. What if I hadn’t broken my ankle? Where would I be right now? Would I be in the best shape of my life? Would I feel strong and ready? Would I be mentally ready? Would I still be excited about the sport? What if? 

The questions to those answers will have to wait. I did break my ankle. I did have to pull out from the race. I did have to adjust my goals. At times I’m okay with that. Right now, it’s a little harder to swallow. Vineman 70.3 will have to wait until another time for me. 

My healing and recovery progress is moving along. I am just shy of 4 months post surgery and I was cleared to start jogging by my physical therapist. I have to start slow and only jog for short distances but this a huge step in the right direction. Typically with a tibial pilon fracture, you expect 6-9 months recovery before running again. I am 2 months ahead of schedule! I was blessed with an amazing surgeon, supervised by a great physical therapist, and followed the plan. I remained patient in the recovery process and it has paid off. 

And so with that, we are off…… 

Windsor, Ca or bust!